Does Delilah's past determine her future???
Well we all have some kind of a past. I always joke that if I were to write a tell all book I'd change the names to protect the not so innocent - ME. I was having dinner with a friend of mine the other night and I said to her that I wish that I had walked away from some of the messed up stuff that I've encountered. I mean really - some of it was fun but unfulfilling, freaky but wasteful. We have wasted so much time for a good time. The battle scars today let me know that.
Yes of course God's grace has kept me from a lot of it. You can't always see the pain that's been suffered on the outside. It's not the movies for God's sake! We're not walking around with a scarlet A on our chest but certainly there are matters of the heart that we dare not share. There are things within us, left there by the hands of someone very handsome - but very hateful. Or maybe it wasn't really some dude...maybe it was just us. Maybe we were brought up to think only of ourselves. Only thinking of where our SEXUALITY can take us. How our SEXUALITY can get us out of where we are with someone else paying for the ticket. The prettiest girl with the devious ways.
Other times - we only attempt to protect ourselves. Like Tamar, your brother raped you and left you in the fatal hands of society. Are you unable to produce, unable to enter into any life giving relationship because you yourself are the walking dead? Ashamed not only that you were violated but also that your pleas for redemption were ignored. When you cried "You're hurting me!" it only seemed to ignite the evil passion within him. So you cry no longer - but inside your heart weeps.
So many things haunt us. So many things keep us intertwined with addictions and engulfed in our secret sins. The dark shadows in our closets tie us to the very things that we hate. And although some of us raise our hands in worship on Sunday morning - we wonder if our hands are yet clean.
I want you to look at yourself...really truly see you. Determine today that God loves you exactly the way that you are - but too much to leave you that way. Take the time to admit that you are hateful because you're hurting. Decide that your bitchiness is because you were abandoned. After you've admitted what and who you really are - let God's love heal you. The REAL you.
Delilah's days are deliverance days. Yes Delilah’s greed hurt a man but also a people. Don't let your greed for love from all the wrong places keep you in bondage for the rest of your life. Write to us and be real and we'll be real with you. Remember what Ecclesiastes says - vanity vanity - All is vanity.
